Once in a while - just every once in a great while - you have one of those
moments. They are those moments that come one at a time, with no interruptions, no
competitions, no phone ringing or beeping, no kids screaming for attention, no
emergencies, no jamming of the lines, no log pile of ideas...
So you fold that last piece of laundry, you nail down that last plank. You lay that
last brick and wash off your trowel with your fullest attention, aware of your
deepest joy. You sharpen your lawn mower blade and savor the motion and sound of
the file sliding roughly and at just the right angle along the cutting edge. You
toss one extra pass of your football with your kid or your dad or your friend, you
fine tune your guitar, you reread that last couple of pages of your favorite book,
you measure out and keep the safe space between you and the car ahead...
Not often, but every one in a while you have that perfect kind of moment when you
put everything you've got into a task and find you have enough, and you feel that,
even if you bungle the job, there is little at stake. You sink your teeth into
something, put your heart into it, act deliberately, by choice - not by coercion of
immediate necessity. You mean what you do as if there was no meaning at all in
everything else - you do it for the joy of doing, not just to get it done. You
shoot from the hip, swing from your shoulders, and feel that exhilarating grace and
balance of having found your center, or having centered yourself.
It is for those every-once-in-a-while kind of moments - far more than for those
once-upon-a-time ones - that we can be most thankful. It is in those moments that
we find some sense of who we are. Regardless of how grand or how common the event
of the moment is, in it we see ourselves at our absolute best - focused, poised and
pure - no compromise, no ulterior motives, no self deception or pretense. We see
what we are like when we have no point to prove or score, no bills to fit, no
scrutinizing to endure... We meet again that child in us who stills loves to swim
naked in the cold, quick-running waters of the now - the child in us who can feel
in his skin and very bones the warmth and brilliance of the sun. In those moments
there is that flash of astonishing recognition: this is not a child who is merely
in us - this child is us.
No wonder we love the moments and want them to linger. But for now they can't, so
we must let them go. They are the flicker of some holy flame, a twinkling of an eye
wherein the dead come alive again. Remember them, thank the Lord for them, but move on
into the next moment and be present in it. It is God's present to you.